Not a good day.....

My sister and I went to visit mom today.....she was crying when we arrived.  Crying out daddy, daddy,  daddy......we told her who we were but we could tell it did not register who we were.  She just kept crying out for her daddy.  The aid asked if we knew why and we had no idea.  Her daddy has been dead for over 30 years but that one piece of a memory was there today.  The aid said she usually does not start crying and calling for her daddy until late afternoon but that she had been this way since breakfast.  We tried to console her, tried to get her to go for a ride with us but we could not get her to move from her spot on the sofa.  I told her I brought her a special treat and gave her an M&M peanut butter and she liked that.....usually she will eat several but would only eat one today. She finally stopped crying and we kept telling her who we were and then she would start crying again.   Her ability to carry on a conversation did not exist today.  We just kept talking to her and when we would understand a word we would comment back.  It just breaks my heart to see her like this. It is a horrible disease that makes no sense to the one who has it....and to the family it is a progression into a black hole for their loved one.  There is not a darn thing you can do but watch them slip farther and farther away.  Her bad days seem to out number her good days as she slips away from us. I wish I had a funny story to tell about today's visit but I don't have one.....just heartbreak today.   Mom we love you.